It was sort of a shock to see the faint pink line on the test. You had to tilt the whole thing to the left, cross your eyes and let the light hit it just right... but it was there. Pregnant. Juuuust barely.
'Come look at this!' I called to my husband.
He declared he had no desire to see my pee on a stick.
I walked out of the bathroom and shoved it in his face.
'I don't see anything!' He said.
'It's there! I'm pregnant!'
And that was that. Another life, growing inside me.
We hadn't really been trying, honestly. It's just that we stopped not trying to have a baby. We felt like, if something like that happened, we could handle it. We felt prepared. This feeling rapidly evaporated as I looked at the first positive test.
Another life, growing inside me.
Four additional tests showed positive, so I gave up and called my doctor. They congratulated me and scheduled an appointment- 5 weeks away. I will be at 9 weeks, approximately. I will have a sonogram. Maybe seeing this little life inside me will make it feel more real? Maybe hearing a heartbeat will do it. Maybe the ever constant nausea will cause me to realize that I will be a mother soon.
In the mean time, I'm trying to force myself to relax. Don't worry, Hope! Be relaxed... Little Baby needs a comforting place to stay for a few months, before meeting the world.
Another life. Growing inside me.
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